pernahkah kamu berpikir kalau mengenalnya adalah cara-Nya mempermudah hidupmu? melalui cara pikirnya, kata-katanya, aktivitasnya, buku yang dia baca, kaset yang dia putar, teman yang dia punya..
seperti halnya ketika kamu berpikir bahwa orang yang menabrakmu hingga bukumu jatuh dan membuat sepersekian detik di hidupmu terambil untuk mengambil buku itu adalah cara-Nya menjagamu dari tabrakan maut di ujung jalan sana..
(last year monolog, in the most empty heart)
Saturday, May 29, 2010
Wednesday, May 19, 2010
contemplation in a gloomy midnight
yes, of course..
you can not force other people to feel things they do not feel.
it's really true.
you can not force other people to feel things they do not feel.
it's really true.
Thursday, May 6, 2010
behind a question
my sister made a handmade!
100 % from her own hand. and i was coming home from my outdoor activities when she opened the door for me and said, "mbak ver, liat!"
typical (:
i admit, i'm not a good sister for her, coz i sometimes really busy in my own world. plus, i was very tired that day. my activity as an apprentice in a pharmacy, waiting in a long list for a loss report, and shopping (there will be always a time for this, hehe..). but i did the right thing that day. fiuh. i appreciate her. hehe..
coz when a devil overwhelmed me that time, i would only walk through her without even saw what she wanted to show. yup! i am a bad sister sometimes. and if someday her creativity is killed, it must be me who made it ):
well, of course it's not about what she made. i don't even know for what her teacher asked her to make that thing. and of course it's not about her handwriting, or how she cut the paper, it's not about the result. it's about how she did it.
i remember when i woke up in the morning, i saw her working with papers and scissors in front of the television. i also remember how she often get frustrated every time she did things that need her to be very accurate, that always made her mother asked her sisters and brother (including me) to finish her homework while she got mad somewhere. urgh.
but not that time (:
i know, appreciation is urgently needed for a children and their imperfect-ness in doing some work. yup, to shape perfect things in their following moments. especially in their growth phase. and what actually they need is to be heard and questions, so they can be helped to tell the whole story they want to share if they can't find a way..
and as the time goes by, i realize, it's not for children only. i'm sure, we always do something new everyday though it's not great like discovering drug for every disease, though it's only a small thing like not making trouble in a first day in the office..
bad or good. deep inside you want to share.
hufff..
i don't know how..
update:
click to see the postscript about the most stupid thing i meet today.
100 % from her own hand. and i was coming home from my outdoor activities when she opened the door for me and said, "mbak ver, liat!"
typical (:
i admit, i'm not a good sister for her, coz i sometimes really busy in my own world. plus, i was very tired that day. my activity as an apprentice in a pharmacy, waiting in a long list for a loss report, and shopping (there will be always a time for this, hehe..). but i did the right thing that day. fiuh. i appreciate her. hehe..
coz when a devil overwhelmed me that time, i would only walk through her without even saw what she wanted to show. yup! i am a bad sister sometimes. and if someday her creativity is killed, it must be me who made it ):
well, of course it's not about what she made. i don't even know for what her teacher asked her to make that thing. and of course it's not about her handwriting, or how she cut the paper, it's not about the result. it's about how she did it.
i remember when i woke up in the morning, i saw her working with papers and scissors in front of the television. i also remember how she often get frustrated every time she did things that need her to be very accurate, that always made her mother asked her sisters and brother (including me) to finish her homework while she got mad somewhere. urgh.
but not that time (:
i know, appreciation is urgently needed for a children and their imperfect-ness in doing some work. yup, to shape perfect things in their following moments. especially in their growth phase. and what actually they need is to be heard and questions, so they can be helped to tell the whole story they want to share if they can't find a way..
and as the time goes by, i realize, it's not for children only. i'm sure, we always do something new everyday though it's not great like discovering drug for every disease, though it's only a small thing like not making trouble in a first day in the office..
bad or good. deep inside you want to share.
hufff..
i don't know how..
update:
click to see the postscript about the most stupid thing i meet today.