fireflies in the night with thousands falling stars

time flies when you're having fun, you wake up and half the year is gone. you're twenty-four!

yeyy!! it's my 24th birthday..
alway getting older every year, huh? -___-

and again, it's not an audit day xD

i just want to celebrate it. with my laptop and my mouse in my room and a birthday song. and again, no cake and no candle. just me and my new 24 ^^

what i like to proudly tell in my birthday is the fact about my eyes which are getting bigger and bigger more than ever, and yes, their ability to capture everything by a single glance is increasing. although it's not significantly increased -___-

but, i this birthday i will do something different. i want to make some wishes:

i get a research project as soon as possible so i can finish my study in the next semester. and life after that will be beautifully flying like fireflies in the night with thousands falling stars, and my wishes are dancing touchably like butterflies under the warm sun with its skies and birds. but the most important thing for me now is that my brother can do his final examination successfully without any difficulties and God's hand always with him. amiin.

ding dong! happy birthday!

the death of my cellphone

the death of my cellphone reminds me of my old cellphones q:

my very first cellphone was Nokia 3310 grey in my first grade of high school. it was my mother's and the first cellphone in my family. and one day she had to go to do a research in germany and she lent her cellphone for my father. but then my father gave it to me and he bought Siemens A35 black.



maybe my father didn't satisfy with his Siemens A35, he wanted my Nokia 3310 and he bought me Siemens C45 blue which i called "handphone sejuta umat" because everywhere i looked, my classmates held this cellphone.



i was still in the first grade when my mother came back to indonesia and asked me what kind of cellphone i wanted her to buy, then i chose Siemens MT50 grey. this cellphone was originally bought in germany and wasn't available in indonesia.



actually, i wanted Nokia 7210 because it was the first polychromatic cellphone i knew. unfortunately, it hadn't been sold in germany until the last day my mother in germany. and in second grade, i saw my friend used this Nokia 7210 T___T in this year, cellphone became more popular, and i wished to have Nokia 3650 or Siemens m55. but, yes, sometimes i think i have a moment when everything is so easy to get, but the other time is difficult. a wish is just a wish.

but again, my father offered me a new cellphone qx because, maybe, that time, my sister had just lost her Nokia 2100 and my father wanted to buy her a new cellphone. then i chose Siemens ST45 silver and my sister nokia 3200. and this siemens was the suckest cellphone i ever had. it pissed me off. it took a very long time to loading, even just for a letter.



and when i had my graduation day, my father bought me Sony Erricson K700i silver. well, actually my parent did. not only my father qx thank you (:



i think i was very consumptive that time -____-

and in my college life, this K700i accompanied me through the first days. i learned something like downloading ringtones and themes. then this K700i started to act very naughty. and i stole my brother's Nokia 3230 black. yes, i stole it. because i thought my brother was too young to have a cellphone and the fact that he didn't use it qx and my father got my K700i. and do you know what? he threw it away. because it was naughty T____T



and that time actually i brought two cellphones, with Sony Erricson K500. it was my mother's, but she had new one and this cellphone was unemployed. i needed it because there was a war among the providers. and im3 was cheaper than mentari (my first provider). and i also wanted to use AS. so i use "always buy new" im3 and AS, and i kept my mentari so i could "menghemat pulsa" without realizing the time limit, and it was more than 60000 rupiah, when it died on april, just before my birthday ),:

so, yes, i said goodbye to my 08156808923 and welcome to the im3 number, which i used until now ^^

then i realize that using two numbers was troublesome. so i only used Nokia 3230 and sold the K500. using this cellphone i learned something like java applications. i'm really sure, i was the first class (semester 3) who had Opera Mini 2 and an application for yahoo messenger (i forget the name, not e-buddy) in my cellphone qx thanks for wap.getjar.com

what i love about Nokia is their ability to save thousands messages. and i had more than 3000. and suddenly it dead when i had my field-practice for my apothecary program in industry. then i used my mother's cellphone Sony Erricson W880i and my brother's Sony Erricson W610i before i bought Nokia E52 which was transforming into a cadaver now ),:



and i don't want to talk about my new cellphones q:
i choose the cheap one, because i haven't worked yet. hehe. though my father offers me to buy blackberry. but i just dislike blackberry T___T

but i borrowed Nokia 2600 from my lovely devil =D before i buy new one!

the cadaver

today is the day my cell phone’s dead. he was really dead. can’t be fixed. can’t be cured. and something that hurts me more is the fact that in noki*a costumer care i found a big green box: “masukkan handphone, batterai, atau charger anda ke dalam kotak ini dan kami akan mengolahnya bla bla bla” errrr.. bukankah kehilangan sudah cukup menyakitkan tanpa harus ada bumbu-bumbu seperti itu? ),:

i even thought to make the cadaver of my cell phone as a keychain xD or as a gacuk to play engklek.

so, new cellphone?
~lalala. if only i was rich to buy everything ^^

the history

let's start talking about the history of my blogging activity =3 ah, it's because i reread my old blog lately and curse my self T__T

i started to blog when i was in first grade high school, year 2002, if i'm not mistaken. the wish of having a class web for my junior high school led me to find out how to make it happened. then i found blogspot which was free, after a long exploration in warnet. hehe.. i always remember how internet connection was very expensive that time so i couldn't use it every time i want, plus my activities during my first year in high school, i didn't expect too much to finish my work. i even lost many data of my friend in junior high school T__T

but, since i'd read many personal blog that time, i made my first personal blog in blogspot as a trial. i used "verdazone" or something like that for my web address. oh, yes, it's gone now. i think i'd deleted it after i graduate (haha, i forgot what i'd done to my first blog). i just remember that it was very silly and absurd and ah so fuc*king ridiculous when i tried to explain about my life or something. i was very lazy to update my blog that time because i didn't like wasting time in warnet (it could be hours and verrrry tiring!).

and i was in first year in college life (year 2005) when i knew friendster. some of my friends affected me to make a blog in friendster. and the time i made a blog in friendster was the time i said goodbye to my blog in blogspot. and now, i regret it ),: if only i perpetuated my very first blog. sigh.

but then i found my best friend has a blog in blogspot. and suddenly i wanted to make one too again because i didn't really like my blog in friendster. then voila, savorsimplicity.blogspot.com was born! ^^ i got the address from "life manifesto" by morgan l. johnson. don't ask me who is he. all that i knew he made 9 life manifesto:

live fully
seek serenity
laugh often
tread mindfully
savor simplicity
love passionately
think globally
exude creativity
treasure tranquility

and i chose savor simplicity as my manifesto of life xD hehe. actually i read it in a picture, but i can't find the picture.

because the internet connection was easier to find that time, i periodically updated my blog, beside that i was very lonely that time and needed a place to share something. the first euphoria was to announce my blog to everybody, but i thought no body was interested about my blog. i didn't even find my friend around me had something like blog T__T so i just grumbled by my self. alone.

i wish i can remember my first blog skin and the title of my blog. too bad, i can't. i changed the skin many times. and i think, this is one of my favorite skin. i don't really remember, and i can't find my archive T___T


i got the idea from my real life of course, especially about something that came through my mind. or maybe from a new phrase i found, then i strung it up into a story. and i was amazed how i love it very much. i love to grumble. love to curse. love to say everything i want to say to show up my feeling, though it only worked if i have a bad mood -____- yes, something like pathetic thoughts.

then i'm ashamed about that. hehe..

and i had to hide it. and lived in disguise. then change the address. from bitterbuttersoul, hanyaverda, justverda, etc. ah, very labile that time. i don't even know how many times i changed my address xD then, this is verdafarida.blogspot.com, published with my own name, though i feel the difference how i share story. but i hope i don't loose my style =3

i didn't ask for attention or something, that's why there's only about me and i didn't do link exchange. i only share story about something i want to share to reduce the size of my overload brain or just to figure out something. i don't care about my language. and i don't care if someone misunderstand.

those fussy ladies

hahhh..

i'm lost!
i forced my brain to think about something this whole day, but i'm failed!

i really need a new inspiration and to be far far faaaaaaaaaaaaaar away from those fussy ladies who like to talk about nothingness every minutes.

it's messing me up. because then i can't think about anything. even my day. and my boy. and i really don't like this. i really don't!

i need to get out from there and start to do something. but what? c'mon verdaaaa, you used to be able to see little pieces in your life. and made your life more meaningful. it's rubbish, verda! rubbish!

move! move! move!