this world has thousands heads

umm..
i don't know since when i'm afraid to give an opinion and i'm too afraid to join in a debate to get a denial or rejection to make me feel so guilty to what i've said or i've thought. i'm afraid to play with words and make some friction with others. yep! i'm glad i have my own opinion about an issue or something, but i think i've lost my ability to stay cool in a debate and to show my mind without making any friction. then i choose to be silent.

i'm not as smart as i used to be in a very long time a go. i used to enjoy a debate with friends. but nowadays people have a bigger self defence and will be more emotional and reactive to some other people who don't suit to what they think is right. i hate to be democratic, i sometimes get out of control to speak up my mind to an issue but i'm just too afraid to get a reactive feedback. hehe..

it happened to me twice. i was just commenting about something but they reacted like i was saying something very wrong and they just got upset to me. errr.. i think i'm being more sensitive..

but, hello..

if you can't accept the fact that this world has thousands heads, think twice about something you want to say, people doesn't always say yes to what you think. you even don't always say yes to what people think, then why are you bothered?

and, hey, verda!
shut up! *kriiik..

ugh, i just wish people have a smart way of speaking. yeah, it's a self note for my self too. i love sharing brains. eh?

but too bad, i think people hate to talk to me -___- sampe kadang-kadang saya mati gaya. haha.. lupakan.