roda

hidup itu bukan roda. hidup nggak bisa membawaku ke tempat yang aku mau seperti apa yang telah motorku lakukan untukku.

i'm jealous of everything i see today. the combination of moon and star. the song that i sing terribly. the friendship. the call. the conversation between two lovers in love. everything.

i would say that i was in lowest ground for now if i refused to see that i'd done the document control. i'd done what mr. edy asked me to. i'd done what my mom asked me to. i'd done to make a smile on my sister's face.

i know, it won't be last forever qx
i'm inconsistent
i'm so fragile and broke so easily without that hand..

lost in jogja

a glance about that city,
it is a city that successfully forced me to take bath twice a day. really hot and sweating, including during the morning and evening. oddly enough, when i try to keep the blanket away from me, my room mates drew the covers instead and i saw them sweating.
*i do not believe it*

and this week, i only spent 4 nights on that city. heheheee.. but i had to take four bundle home jobs to be done as soon as possible T____T

and when the morning comes, and i had to take a bath before 5 am, the water is warm T____T oh, what's wrong with the city??
panas e full!!! jacket and blanket are totally useless, except the lusuh-coloured-jacket of my college qx

hahahaaa...
back to the title..

yes..
i lost in jogja. in the airport actually, and was tricked by a taxi driver PLUS my phone left on that damn taxi, and i lost 125000 rupiahs for a silly trip today, for receiving bad treatment ),x but today is a happy ending ^^

little sarjana

i miss the little pieces of my unfinished puzzle and i'm trying to come to restart to finish my unfinished puzzle before it turns into pieces again >____< masih adakah bentukmu, puzzle-ku? aku kangen q,x



well, i'm on my hometown now after a week having never ending class on a pharmaceutical laboratories in a city near my hometown. it's my second night actually. and i'll be back there on monday dawn by pramex )x *ugh, i really hate to say that i love my jogja very much, and people in it, and him of course! hahahaaa..*

yupz..
my brain has gone qx
i can not thinking anything i need to think. about the puzzle, especially. where are you, my brain?

hmmm..
a week in a hot and sweaty city remind me of my old writings about leaving jogja. i grow up (or just grow old? at least i'm changed!), and i have been being a sarjana for now. a little sarjana who tries to live in a trial wild world. i still got nothing about this life yet though, but believe me, i'm a little bit expert about water systems and HVAC more than before, hehehee.. the only class my brain could follow while my eyes were so uncontrolled. and i'm almost ready to face the comprehensive test about all this *censored* things! just several days to go. but i hate to know that the comprehensive test will be done more than 3 months later, months after i do things in the pharmacy. ugh.. how if there was a big eraser erasing my memories about thousands things i'd heard, seen, and done in the hot and sweaty city? how if there was a big stone hitting my head and i got amnesia? -____-

and, ohh..
my last tests are BAD >___<


ohhh..
hahahahahaaaa..
i admit, i write this stupid things disambi ngelakuin hal yang lain qx then i found a big stone, but not big enough to wake me from my indescribable thing in my indescribable place:

PS : Now I know why you love to saying "My -Never stop thinking too hard- brain". That's because you like to think every detail around you.
Aku rasa kamu udah tahu apa aja kelemahan dan kelebihan dari berpikir hal-hal detil dengan begitu seringnya.
Kelebihannya kamu lebih baik dalam menganalisa suatu masalah, kamu pasti lebih terarah dalam mengatur masa depanmu. Tapi sayangnya karena kebanyakan mikir pasti kamu jadi malesan (karena ada aja alasan yang dipikirin, kalo nggak "Just do it" atau pas lagi gak kepepet pasti nggak terlaksana), perfeksionis (bagus apa jelek ya?), kurang berani dalam menyatakan pendapat di depan umum (Kecuali di blog ini), punya penyakit sering menggerutu bahkan dalam setiap hal sepele yang kamu temui (digabungin dengan emosi cewe lagi, jadi gawat nih).
Berhati-hatilah dalam banyak berpikir, karena bisa membantumu dalam mencapai cita-citamu tapi juga bisa menghambatmu.

BTW I like the way you think, just keep yourself open-minded okay.

i forget about this. i even forget about everything..