L.A.Z.Y

 Aku pikir aku sedang ketakutan, tapi sepertinya aku cuma malas.

Malas menghadapi kegagalan.

Honestly, I’m exhausted with myself—constantly confused by my own thoughts and feelings. I know what I want, but I don’t want to put in the work. I wish for some kind of magic to make it happen.

See? Maybe it's not fear—maybe I’m just being lazy.

💛

The best compliment I ever received was when someone told me that their friend (who used to be my friend as well) said I was one of the most fun people at the institute. Made my day.

A Reflection on Simple Blessings

When I look back at the past...

I am truly grateful for the house I lived in. All the essential places were within reach—the bus stop, the supermarket I could visit after work, the short walk to my office, and a place where I could spend time with my loved ones.

Have I not been grateful enough?

Odyssey*

In the coming days, I will embark on a journey of self-discovery, one where I'll face the uncertainty of traveling alone. Fear will walk beside me—fear of the unknown, of unfamiliar places, and of not accomplishing what I set out to achieve. Yet, I know that with each step, I’ll grow stronger.

There will be moments of doubt, where I will question whether I’m moving in the right direction. The fear of failing to fulfill the purpose of my travels will loom large, but I’ll remind myself that every challenge is an opportunity to learn and evolve. I will find courage not in the absence of fear, but in the strength to move forward despite it.

This journey will be about more than just destinations; it will be about embracing the journey itself. I will face my fears, one by one, and I’ll carry hope with me, knowing that no matter the outcome, I’ll emerge wiser, braver, and more resilient.

*this post was made using AI because I don't even know what to say anymore.

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The abbreviations that I still accept:
yg

gpp

blm (but I can't accept sdh)

(word)2 

btw

thx

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otw

Rindu Minggu

Merindukan hari Mingguku yang slow dan relaxing.

Putus asa

Aku sedang berputus asa.

Pada satu hal, tidak semua.

Who will get the best if no one give the best?

A little reunion

I wrote this post so I can remember how nice someone could be.

So,

Back in my college life, I had this kind of friend who was, from my point of view, very religious. He was one of the members of my practical working group. He was (is) friendly with his characters.

Today, I met him.

I met him because I was supposed to be responsible for the mobility of one of the stakeholders invited by my institution, who was none other than our female friend. They work in the same office and at that time, they were having an office event in my city.

Then,

we had a little reunion.

We had a plan to visit our uni today.

Then they invited a man I know, one of their friends.

When this man met me, he casually asked whether I was his friend's ex.

Not feeling proud of the past story, so I said, "no."

Nevertheless, my intention was to invite him to joke. The more he did not believe it, the more I denied his statement.

And, perhaps, my good friend saw me uncomfortable and said, "Saya yang mantannya."

It was really a small gesture of his, but it felt so good having a friend who was willing to do such a thing, whatever his intention was.

Gratitude journal: the shortest one.

 People teach about gratitude journal.

And, me..

just being me.

That gratitude journal invalidates my big feelings.

Help.