I am not really sure why things get really complicated up there in my brain. Not even sure if there was a smooth pathways before these chaotic thinking. Or a day when I did not think about anything at all. Am I always this busy (--in my mind)?
Busy?
Busy thinking or busy procrastinating? Busy daydreaming?
It is messed up, right here, right now.
What I know now is that I might choose the wrong button, months ago.
I chose to be scared. And I am scared (Really, I should stop using metaphors --but I can't).
I should forgive myself for that.
"Hey, I forgive you. I forgive for the wrong choice you made. I know you were scared. I know you are scared. No one likes to deal with things you are dealing right now. I know there are a lot of strong women out there. You don't have to be one, if you don't want to be one."
