evanescence

Well, it's been a long time, isn't it?

Here's what happened. My title is longer than my name. Yes, I've got my master's degree and I've got my life back for a while, because now, my life is taken away. Again. But that's what we call life anyway. Coming back and forth. Roller coaster.

That is one of some good news I have for you, and the rests are quite pathetic. Like my life used to be. And the saddest one was evanescence. Don't be silly by asking me whether I'm sad or not, My Dear. I've claimed it as the saddest moment. But, then, it gives me a lot of time to meet chances to put myself in a long journey of thinking, with some absurdities here and there, and some demotivational senses. But, I'm going to explain you something. I have a wider brain, wide enough to tell you that I have quaint brain. I have larger eyes, large enough to tell you that I my brain is too small. Oh, shut up. I'll make it simple. I understand almost everything now, with some question marks in my head, here and there and everywhere. Hmm.. Here we go the oxymoron side of me. Just say, "Yes, Ma'am" to shut me up.

And, yes.. losing hope is the worst thing in a life. Mine. Yours. Theirs. Everybody's. Hopes, and expectation, are the best assassin. I disagree. I'm still alive now. Am I happy now? Well, since happiness is a choice, I should be able to choose between happy and unhappy. I know, if I want to be happy, be. And if I want to be unhappy, be. But, I have to admit that I can't choose between happy and unhappy, and it makes me feel so unhappy. Because life is a constellation of happiness and unhappiness. These two things aren't paralleled. They will meet in a point. Me, there. Unhappy because of losing hope, and happy because I still can do hoping. And in the end, I'm happy to be unhappy.

one thing for sure, it's a process.